My Mind When I Went Through the C-Sec

I was wheeled in at 7:30 pm. My doctor was there. All formalities were done. My mom walked in at 8 pm. Now I broke down. I think the only person I admitted to how scared I was. She just kissed me and said, “All will be ok. There is nothing to worry.” I had spoken to my dad before I was wheeled in. I had met my in laws also. Everyone said the same thing, but I could see how nervous they all were. They had put a brave front for me and the baby.

I was taken to the operation theater and then came the anesthetist. He gave his set of instructions. I was calm and did whatever I was instructed to. He was surprised to see me and said he had very rarely seen someone so good. That was not the time to get compliments.

I was now lying down straight with a curtain between my upper and lower body. I kept asking for my husband and said no one will touch me till he is here. I felt very sick and cold. I was shivering. They gave something to comfort me. I can’t remember what it was. Now my husband was next to me. I don’t think I have ever held his hand so tight. I was constantly reciting the Gayatri Mantra in my head and we talked about random things. I told him we don’t have a name for a boy, what will we do if it is a boy!! He said don’t worry it will be a girl.

My doctor assured me all was ok and we were ready to go. She pinched my leg and as I did not feel anything she said to just relax now. I was naked, surrounded by I don’t know how many people. It was a weird feeling.

I could feel something happening on my tummy. Of course, it was a cut but I did not feel any pain. In a few minutes, the doctor told the anesthetist standing next to me to push from up. This was a weird sensation and I shouted as if it was paining. I remember when the baby came out and CRIED. It was 9:10 pm.

We both just looked at each other and smiled. Tears rolled down my eyes. My doctor asked my husband to get up and see. He got up and the smile on his face told me, IT IS A GIRL. He did not need to tell me. We both wanted one and our angel was here.

I was stitched up while the doctors quickly checked her and said she was the weight of a full-term baby and thus, was not getting space to move. I had not gained much weight during my pregnancy. My baby was brought to me and all I could say was Hi baby!!

The world stopped when they brought my princess next to me for some time before they took her to the NICU. The father disappeared with her saying he will see me soon. Was I surprised? It was the most special day of his life too!! She was so tiny and gorgeous!!

Her little hands stole my heart.. and her little feet ran with it!!

I was a mummy and God had given me the most precious gift ever!!